Tonight was the worst. Knowing that Ben is in Bensalem cooking for his brother, so close, and yet he didn't even call or text me? Pretty fucking painful. Even though I know it's over, and we're never getting back together, I can't help hoping... I know he's not going to call me tomorrow; he's not going to stop by for a visit before he heads back to school. But for whatever reason, I just can't help getting my hopes up, just the tiniest bit.
Thank goodness for Joe. If he wasn't engaged, I'd be on that like white on rice. We argue like cats and dogs, but he's one of the nicest guys ever.